My Story

In this image you can see all the things that I have dreamed of. My children. My grandchild. A messy play room in a house filled with love and gratitude. This image was a fleeting dream not long ago.

Truth be told, I have been married a few times. After my last marriage, I never thought I would have another love in my life. I settled on raising my daughter by myself and I was just going through the motions. At a time when love seemed completely lost, my husband rode in like a knight in shining armor. He reminded me of my worth, loved me unconditionally, and stepped into the role of father.

As our relationship grew, we bought our first house, and wanted to hear the pitter patter of little feet running through the halls.

This is where our fairytale turned into a nightmare. We struggled with creating our kingdom. I already had a daughter. Why couldn’t we have children? Why couldn’t I get pregnant?

What was wrong with me?

We did all the tests. Nothing wrong. The judgement that I kept placing on myself through this trying time was very unhealthy. It was all my fault. I couldn’t give this man the children that he deserved. I couldn’t do the one thing a woman was placed on this earth to do. I couldn’t grow a tiny human.

I was devastated.

My mental health started falling into a pit of despair. My physical health wasn’t any better. Outwardly, I looked and sounded fine. Inwardly, I was a mess.

We had tried everything we could think of. Tips and tricks, old wives' tales, eat this, drink that. I tracked my cycles down to the minute. We went as far as taking 3 different rounds of fertility medication. That in itself became a hellish rollercoaster with out of control hormones and mood swings. I wouldn’t want to procreate with myself, let alone expect my husband to.

There came a point when I just gave up.

It was during that despair that I went to a health fair with my sister-in-law. I met a woman who had similar struggles. That woman was a Wellness Advocate with dōTERRA Essential Oils. She convinced me to get a bottle of essential oils called Balance®. It was supposed to support your emotions, give you feelings of being grounded and centered, and help with balancing hormones. At that time I figured, “Why not?” It smelled nice so at least I was getting a perfume that I enjoyed that was all natural.

That brief introduction took my life from a nightmare to a fairytale.